I woke up this morning And I looked all around What I saw was a warning Coming up from the ground When I wake up to see that it’s the afternoon Wishing somehow I could be closer to the moon Cause it’s you A ghost so ancient that it dare not show To see me caused a hatred that would only grow Decisions to forget me Cause he felt I betrayed the Brotherly rules we Wrote them out in words that we had just acquired Creating rules we wouldn’t break out of impulse desires Cause it’s you

Part I Distracted by love and condemned by its pain You’ll never forget all the things you have gained Experience the new places, you’ll never forget I just hope you can remember, the way her hair went You don’t wanna live anymore Cause the things you loved once You can no longer adore Like a ghost walking through She can find her way, without you Now and again when you finally find her You’ll see it’s already at an end She’s destroying everything good That could have been It’ll be hard And you’ll probably never heal At least you loved once And you’ll know it was real No longer a ghost in a dreamers field

Part II The waters changing And you can see it now Her eyes are shaping To get around She can never see what she’s done Cause now the absence of love Has caused her to blinded by fate And what she could become Everything she wanted to be She swore she’d never do Look, look, look, look Ohh, ohh All the pieces of her you once loved And spent some much time trying to forget Things will never be the same Cause neither of you let He shoulda let you be you instead of trying to change By letting you choose Not replacing the blame Controlling your thoughts For fear you would lie Cause he couldn’t accept The way you said goodbye

I miss being the one you looked up to When you would say, how proud you were I miss the days when life were simple No worries no cares, just love that could cripple And I wont feel the same cause after all, still have so much to gain Those were days when love Was all that we needed Too bad the love has gone My hearts been defeated And my heart, has lost the war But my mind has been here before Between you and me It sounds very selfish But I will plead For you to be on my level To see things as I do You will see Search for my heart it’s somehow, gone missing Run for the hills, you’ve lost all, chance of convincing Me that you love me for Who I was before To be alone for a moment And deal with my problems Of you and me And without all the pressure Of being a model For you to be I don’t want you to see me Suffering like this, I want to be strong And to be your hero The one you worshiped You, will see Now that it’s over You wont see me suffer Cause I will be gone And I can’t way to see All you’ll accomplish When I am gone

Im done with love for tonight Let's meet again in the daylight I'd rather spend this time alone Then lay around gather my insides God forbid I tried at all To let you know that I choose to fall Turned around you almost knew The words you thought but you couldn't choose From beneath your bed my demons wait For you to let this cage of inmates free Only you could hold key To giving me the freedom I need God forbid your secrets out and all the feelings you shouldn't doubt In giving you the space you need I might as well just leave you be I couldn't get past that feeling of doubt from the touch of your skin When I felt the thickness and trim of your breath as you vent to me I couldn't see much apart from the repairs that you set out to make And with a slight touch, a gesture now in future it tends to show to late I don't give a damn about what you do As long as when you come here you do what you're suppose to

I never meant to cause you pain I merely meant to ignite the fire inside your brain

I can hear the voice inside my head Whispering the thoughts I shoulda said Hold me tight so I could not let go Lead me through the garden of your home See memories that have come between us Leaving me only with a bread elitist Hid behind and disguise my feelings with A substances I create within my brain it lives Within my brain lives What you don’t see is what I’m working on behind the scenes Changing how I’m perceived Never asked you to run or leave letters I’d learn to love Changing who I’d become The ice we grazed grew beyond our grasp Waded through the day as if it’s our last Pull me in then I’ll betray us Leave a statue to replicate us Tried searching for what we had infused Not a soul insight left for me to use What you don’t see is what I’m working on behind the scenes Changing how I’m perceived Never asked you to run or leave letters I’d learn to love Changing who I’d become

I will come back to you In a different form After I’ve done some searching And some quick reform I will come back to you As a truthful man I just wanna treat you Like a real man can And you will go And find love Unlike mine You should go And move on Find a better man Life is of a dark age The only enemy I see Is this man in the mirror Starring back at me Will you forget me And all that we faced No it was perfect I’m/your not that easily replaced When you go, go slow Take my heart with you Don’t show anyone I said run as fast as you can Cause I’m running from my own demons And this is why I must behave And dine alone to prevent this fate From becoming real and destroying trust It’s hard to see now this is for us

I will come back to you In a different form After I’ve done some searching And some quick reform I will come back to you As a truthful man I just wanna treat you Like a real man can And you will go And find love Unlike mine You should go And move on Find a better man Life is of a dark age The only enemy I see Is this man in the mirror Starring back at me Will you forget me And all that we faced No it was perfect I’m/your not that easily replaced When you go, go slow Take my heart with you Don’t show anyone I said run as fast as you can Cause I’m running from my own demons And this is why I must behave And dine alone to prevent this fate From becoming real and destroying trust It’s hard to see now this is for us

I don’t know which way to go From the mountains where the snow Lays down to let the grass grow Still I don’t know which way to go Will you lead me to the top Letting me know when to stop I look to you for my guidance You’re my teacher you’re my silence Tried to teach you all I knew All you did was just refuse You knew exactly what to do But you just couldn’t choose And this is why I have to leave You’re too busy toying me Never knowing when to stop I said it once I’ve had enough You’re so blinded by your love for me You can’t see you’re destroying me So tell me now what am I to do Turn around and live without you I hope you truly thought this through Wish you could see me as I see you I can’t live without your love for me Please come back and be whole with me

You’re leaving your mark while I find my way Through the dark and through the shame When I walk upon, I see that I don't belong And suddenly it all seems so wrong And when you go, you will know... That I will become More than just your son More than a man Who once, cost you so much For me once, And many times before You would adjust And you would always be kind…. Father of mine You wouldn't laugh When I would cry The memories hurt From when I was nine Wish you could breath Like your lungs were mine At just seventeen, I saw my dreams I learned how to adjust so I could feed my needs With you almost gone, it is clear Why I should now shed a tear Your will is mine To execute When you’re away Don't forget to say You were once a great father Once a great father I will get you home So you can be alone With all that is yours And will all become mine Father I will cry When you are gone I will have died You gave me life You gave it your all So I could have So much to call It’s hard to believe That you could cry I've never seen Someone I love die Now with you gone I will leave my pride I will be always kind Father of mine My only wish before you go Is I could see that smile So I could know That I am still your child

I hope you know that I am safe And accepting my fate An eternity you’re chained inside my mind Dreaming of you and I Even though I wish you would stop And take a look back at these things you forgot A boy with a heart A man with no soul You lost it all ‘cause you chose to be cold Now you’re gone And in my life, I’ll try to move on So much pain and fighting then Would you call it love my friend I hope you know that i’ll forsake The things you did to me that day I know you did flawlessly No regrets no sympathy But it still hurts just the same Now, Now I wish, I wish you’d even try At least to call me to say our goodbyes Who’s with you now I hope that you have found A man worth your time Hope he comes to find That your heart still belongs to me Despite your current company I know somewhere deep down you still love This boy here you’re still dreaming of

When we met she told me stories of The things he did the life she thought he’d lived Strange how cold his hands felt on her face So she said told me of the place The view the love was there, the memories they shared In the house on the hill and how her heart was filled With warmth and happiness in her flower dress As a child she was always loved Then sirens blinked outside she had no place to hide Her perfect family destroyed by her memories Then her mother screamed honey stop these games She is fragile she is my angel What he thought was real was never right And to him it was just another night But not to her it was the end of her life Memories of her with bruises from her father's fist There’s no chance for him to save There’s no chance that he can take it back The pain is always gonna weigh Weigh her down, down to the ground Then he dug that dagger deep beneath her neck she had secrets to keep And then she saw the other side of him short of her earnings with her fathers yearning For her to be more than he was before The bar is set by man with regret What’s a girl suppose to do With no one to protect her for you What’s a girl suppose to be When all she knows is how not to believe Mistakes of the past the rising sun will shed some light at last and the work to be done Life has a funny way of saving us from pain By serving us misery tied to our history What’s a girl suppose to do When all she wants to do is run from you How’s a girl suppose to know How to show someone she loves